June 2012
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Broken. Just broken.
May 2012
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Yesterday was the first day since Thursday that I didn’t feel great. I just hope it was a blip in the system :P
I don’t want to fall, I cannot.
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The other day, I started taking Ritalin.
Despite the posts lately, I’ve been feeling amazing. I take it three times a day, and honestly, I don’t remember ever feeling this good in my entire life. Not even half this good. Words cannot describe my feelings… it’s like a weight has lifted. My focus is improved, I have TONS of energy… the only problem is sleep. Too much energy, too little desire to sleep.
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Anonymous asked: ever fucked a girl?
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It's cold
… and I’m physically exhausted. The weekend feels like it went by way too fast, but I guess it always does.
I actually feel pretty good right now though, besides being cold. Perhaps too much caffeine during the day, and I haven’t hit that lull yet. And I haven’t cut in a while. The heart on my wrist is now almost completely healed, and looks kinda cute, like it was...
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Anonymous asked: today someone saw my scars and said that i should be ashamed at what a lame job im doing at hurting myself. she said my cuts arent bad and that im just crying for attention but im not. it really hurts that ppl think that
alwaysthedourone asked: Fuck that person. Just because you don't get all dressed up and wear make-up doesn't mean that you're ugly. You're probably gorgeous. c:
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Anonymous asked: so your ugly
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Anonymous asked: are you emo
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Anonymous asked: what do you look like?
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Update
So, it seems so far that the Abilify has done… very little. What it has done is calm me down to the point where I don’t get super frightened at the slightest thing. I’ve been pretty mellow I guess. It has still only been a few days, so I’ll have to give it some more time.
Last week I started back to work full time. What a drag. The worst part of going back is the...
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Anonymous asked: can you post a pic of the heart you made?
April 2012
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I am so sick of being an outcast everywhere I go.
love-tracy asked: heey , hope you feel better about yourself and know you're beautiful , because someone like you deserves to be happy :) keep smiling <3 - tracy
chasing-a-starlight asked: Yeah, part of me wants to get off of it just because of how terrible I feel when I miss more than a day. But I feel that tapering off is going to be terrible, and I'm afraid that I won't be able to find something else that works well. I've been on multiple antidepressants before and I've always needed a higher dosage at some point or they just stopped working. So I don't...
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Today, I came to terms with something.
I get drunk more than I should. I drink when I’m sad, angry, alone. But I’m not alcoholic. Never, not once, did I ever question if I might have a bond with it I would one day have to break, but now it feels like I should. When I drink, I get loaded. To the point of passing out, naked, forcing my boyfriend to clean up the messes I make of myself, our apartment, and our lives. He...
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I'm actually kinda confused.
Ultimatums were given. As of now, I am taking Abilify with my regular sertraline dosage. She said that with some of her other patients, it gave them more energy… but from what I’ve been reading, it seems to mostly slow people down… which really isn’t what I need. The alternatives scare me a little bit, and I don’t really know how to react. It’s not crazy...
